The Unmuffled Machineries of Joy

“Did you enjoy your time off?” asked one of them.

“You owe me sixteen hours,” said the boss. It would be easier to hear this sort of shit if I’d made some shinier memories, or accepted that the day after Thanksgiving is a work day at this place, or felt that Thanksgiving was still my favorite holiday.

It used to be, when I was little (and also when I was as tall as I am now, but thinner and with zits) and we went to my grandparents’ for five days in a row. Looking back I imagine that my parents must have dreaded those visits. So many days in close quarters, and nights in a lousy bed with your son in another, in the same room. At least we got a room with a door, and not just a pullout sofa; my grandfather and uncles all snored like walruses.

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On Catching Up On Putting Up With

“Did you get my prescription”

“Not ready”

“OK”

“For what again”

“The usual”

“OK so they say you never called in”

“I didnt I thought you said it was ready? Otehr day. Nvrmd lets get lunch”

“Meet you there”

“Wait where we never said!” And I’ll spare you the rest, as here I gave up on both texting and automated refills, and fucking called her already.

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Cars and Trucks and Things that Go, Slowly

On the first day of my commute to this job, I’d started the loud music way too soon, before I even saw the on-ramp. Then I sped, shouting, into being stopped. Now I know better. I don’t even start my speakers or shouter until I’ve already fired up the sneaker-slider. I sneak and slide over two lanes, at ease with all the cars and trucks holding me in a very tight slow march.

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